I'm wondering why
thinking of those happy times with you
brings me tears.
And I'm wondering why
thinking of those times we argued
brings me laughters.
I'm not posting in this blog probably ever again. All the posts here really forms a significant part of my life. Its something that worth me keeping in my memory forever. Read it if u wish. I'm truely sorry is anything here makes u uncomfortable. Click on the link at the top left hand corner for my current blog. =))
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
5:13 PM
Again.. in my life.. its raining outside.. its quite true.. its the 3rd time... and it rains.. i know... no matter what i do now... i cant make a difference.. i cant study or do anything now... gonna fail all the test next week.... i know.. no.. i don't know what i'm doing... i'm shattered.. alone in my room.. onli the sounds of songs i could hear.. the rain... what else can i do... the earth has no place for me..
I must control myself.. i must.
i will prove to everyone.
i will make you regret.
I know i have lost the war..
i'm injured but i'm not dead.
i will stand up again, and prove to everyone.
What i can do.
I will.
No matter how shattered i am,
i will fight till the last breath.
I will.
I've learnt from the mistake.
I will strive for the best.
I will.
I've found the objective of my life. Have you ? I won't be trap in the cage forever. I will see the world. I will. Its just a small chapter in my life. But yet, an important lesson.
No matter what decision you choose.
I've decided.
Is either i love or i will make you regret.
You have created too much scars on me.
And i know.. it will last for long..
You thought, but you didn't know how i feel. I have eyes that can see. I have ears that can hear. But maybe you didn't know i have a heart that can feel.
I have regretted for loving you too deeply.. i cant turn back now.. but to continue its way and let it go..
You gave me nothing.. but i know, i gave u nothing too.. i'm sorry.
Too much sry and promises from you. Yet its emptied too many times.
You made me hesitate before believing your words.. We have lost of trust.
I read your blog thousands times. You made me wonder. I read the testi you have for me. You made me wonder. I read the testi you've got for him. You broke my heart.
You never gave me a chance. I know. I've let u down.
I'm sorry.
I have left nothing much to say.. just waiting. You flooded my mind. I cant concentrate on doing anything. I stared on the floor, standing, for an hour.. not sure wats on my mind.. till someone called me, then i was awaken. its amazing. Maybe this is the last time i'm blogging.. or perhaps i will blog sometime later.. too much things happened.. i need to tidy myself. I need to clear my mind. I believe the sky will be blue once again, and the sun shining brightly. I will strive for what i want.
Be Prepared !
Life never stops for me to cry,
so I'm moving on.
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